i❤me™??

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain every time I hear your name

The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,
Till I get over you

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

And so...this is what I really want to tell you now..just go ahead and pursue your future, your dream..I hope what we made last night was the right decision..Saranghae, Sarhan.

--ViviaN--
Since 120407~010709

i❤hvayn™ - Back To Second Homes

haha...both of us are going back to our 'second homes' today...he's back to kl, and in a while im going back to klg..both of us, as usual, did the 'last minute' attitude for our hmwks last night...kinda slept late, at 4am...hehe...so, nth to write, but as far as it seems, wont be online for long...so, love ya bloggie! love ya hubby!

p/s : maintaining my sanity ---> stressed

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ - More To Improve

i❤hvayn™ - 14 months =)

hehe..okay, the last post seemed to be on our 1st year anni, and now, it's past exactly two months...it's not that im lazy, but there's really NO TIME for me to do these things nowadays...so, i decided to post some things about myself on this blog from now on, as both of us really have no time for each other, but all the same, wad's mine is his; wad's his is mine...haha...suddenly gone all cheesy....so, after having realised that i currently dont at all live the 'im a 15 year old girl' life, i've suddenly gone all matured i think...no more the vivian who acts like a princess...oh yeah, my maid's gone, and now we do our own housework, haha..currently im in charge of the mopping, ironing, boiling (water), opening padlocks and gates (the early bird =P), and making up beds ( my forte) haha...having all sorts of debate nowadays...just been back from the HKSBP 2009 in Sekolah Menengah Seri Puteri, Cyberjaya...involved all boarding schools from Malaysia, even the ones in Sabah and Sarawak...well, although did not make quite a lot of friends ( many of them were super vain, including guys =C ), it was really a nice experience and trip though...yeah, most importantly gained knowledge on debating from the good debators.." THAT'S HOW A DEBATE SHOULD BE" this particular sentence by our teacher kept ringing in my life...ok, before the debate was my mid year examination...dont think i did really well as i was having a high fever that week, haih...erm, now doing my folio ( but slacking) haha...dn really know what to say but erm, the things between both of us have been good, except the two weeks that we had a big fight, haha...after that, sorting out whatever misunderstandings and set the line about how the two of us should behave, i think that solved everything...hmmm....will upload the video of my funny debate soon, haha...and changed my blog's song, really nice song! hmmm...well, that's for you, although you dont really read our blog...together, success will be ours! aja aja fighting!!!

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ - 365 Days!

hehe...okay..its our first year! i cant believe it!!!! HUBBY I LOVE YOU!!!!!! he gave me a sweet night yesterday, although the distance..thanks by, i really appreciated it....ok, the challenges that we faced was really URGH*, but in any way, it made our love stronger although it hurts sometimes, hehe....im grateful to have him, i really do! however, the priority in our love life now is study first, love second, also as important to us... he's checking in to his university, which i really want to congratulate him once again, hehe...congratulations, darling, and study hard!! such coincidences..haha..got in exactly on the 12th, wad more? hmmm....im fine in school, except that catching up the revisions and juggling time between the cocurricular activities- quite tiring....besides, smsj won the debate against STK! haha, really, i never thought that would EVER happen... their debators were like *ohmygodtheyaresopro* when i heard them speak... and i really dont know how i won the best speaker title, really shocking... the finals would be on the 20th..hmmm... hope for the best... STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!! urgh. midyear examinations...teachers are really pushing me hard..haih....its a good thing, but, haih...haha...what can i do? in order to succeed, some sacrifices (like my beauty sleep) may need to be given up =)..i hope everything is well....and i miss my daddy...havent seen or heard for him for nearly a week... =.= ...he's out to singapore for work, and when he called i was napping >.<...celebrated my mom's bday with jo last friday (actual date : 9th april)..both of us treated her to pizza's...ok, that's all i think...gotta get ready (gonna go back to "prison") daa~~~ LOVE YOU SARHAN!

[a-blissfully-happy-ViviaN]
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i❤hvayn™ - My Whirlwind School Life

based on that topic...anyone from Sc Johore probably can guess what I want to say...haha...I'm so damn tired right now...there's no resting time for me... (i can post now, because i stole a bit of my studying time! '~' ) last saturday, i went for a KH district level quiz....for this coming Friday, im gonna for my SBP drama at Sc Kota Tinggi..Friday to Sunday..and on the next day, Monday (6/4/09) its our (Sc Johore's) turn to go against STK in the Kluang district debate...Im not putting much hope though, but w/o any doubt, im gonna do my best...i wont let all my efforts and the time go to waste (my studying time)...and after that, I'm probably in for the Red Cresent Society's District Level Camping =.=....enough?haha...its not yet over....there's still the choir preparation for the HAC and then, the SBP Debate..that's a good opportunity, however...But, i gotta give up half of my sem hols...big wet blankie...sobsob....maybe just before or after the debate it will be my Mid Year Examination....dont know how on earth am i going to find time to revise, this is certainly making me mad...ah, I had a perfect score for the recent UK1...haha...finally, after 2years of damn hard work, it finally pays off...corresponding to that, I got the first in the batch, something which i never expected for this year, haha... and to be honest, its kinda a good feeling...1st in the batch with a perfect score... =)..

MY MARKS:

Bahasa Melayu : 86 (good, but not satisfied )
English : 88 (VERY POOR )
Science : 85 (worst among 7)
Mathematics : 100 (first time! )
Living Skills : 96 (speechless )
Geography : 87 ( not satisfied )
History : 94 ( not satisfied )

Total Percentage : 90.86%

So, that's it =).....

Now, to my HUBBY!!!!
I miss him, no matter how busy or tired i am he still seems to be in my mind 24/7..
We still do contact each other everyday,however,
The time spent together has certainly decreased tremendously..
No matter what, our relationship is still strong..
Lastly, another 12 days will be ur 1st Year (YEAH~~)


Vivian
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i❤hvayn™ -18.o3.o9

hmmm...really bored at home....so, erm, i havent done any of my homeworks..haha...(shows that im a 'hardworking' student)....woke up at 2, ate, smsed him but rejected, haha...watched movie, had dinner, went to granny's, and back in front of my laptop again...bored bored bored....pontian's really a small town without any excitement except for family warmth...haizz...kay, so, baby anthony (uncle's baby) is confirmed to be here, in my house, for 3years...well, wad can i say? cant possibly send him to China for 3 years...education sucks there..furthermore, he needs to build up his English foundation so that life would be easier for him in Ireland when he gets back...coming next week if ticket can be purchased....ok, i will treat him the best i can, like a brother...well, always wanted one, isnt it? nothing to be frustrated about...besides that, daddy may be going to work in Ireland...sure, im gonna miss him..anyway, its all about technology nowadays, haha...there's webcam n skype...hmm..dnno wad to say anymore...i really miss Sarhan!

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ -I MISS YOU A HELL LOT!!

hubby, i miss you...

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ -Home Sweet Home

(hehe...MY CUTE HUBBY! (WITH BYVY TOGETHER-bday pressie from him!)

yeah, that title sure suits the both of us right now...ok, so where should i start first.....emmm...he got his SPM result last Thursday, which falls on 12.03.09 (also our 11th month together ^^)..good results, i must say...11As...congratulations, hubby! aiyahhh, straightaway fast forward it to ytd...haha...so, YESTERDAY, was our First Date together...hehehe....thanks for the day, by...he acted totallly out of my expectations, even in front of my sister..haha...sweet, i would say...anyway, he's at home now, searching and applying for scholarships to further his studies, while I, being kept for 4days within my semester hols in school just for useless tuitions....morning, afternoon, evening and night...non-stop...okay, that's still considerable as I'm in F3 now, but...with 32 kinds of homeworks within these 6 days is totally outrageous~~~~~! 'Manfaatkanlah masa cuti anda dengan betul'...To us, 'manfaatkan' means sleep all you can, but with these 32 little pests, i dont think we can fulfil our dreams, for now...haha...i just finished my curricular1 exams too, so its kind of relaxing....k, gotta continue doing WORK! will be continued! daa~

ViviaN

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i❤hvayn™ - OOPS

hehe..forgot to add...a sweet but long distance valentine was the best this month =DDDDDD
(and of course, my first valentine ever )

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ - Tired

looks like i didnt post for about a month..hmm, well, there's holidays, but not free to do any posting....homeworks revisions homeworks revision..never ending studying...tensed....hmm....straight to the point of how the both of us are doing now...he's great there, enjoying but tensed, too....eating n eating n eating as usual, haha...getting fatter (him ) =P...so, han told me about his problem three days ago...yeah, its not easy being number 1 and to prove that he's number one...but i just told him not to giv himself so much pressure as he already pass his Spm..now's the time for him to enjoy life while getting used to big cities environment...not to say that i dont encourage him to study, but its just that from my point of view, its better to achieve wad he sets, not what other has in mind for him....being number one but too stressed out is useless...hmm...ok, for my case...very busy with school activities....really busy...competitions, sports day, trainings, tuitions, revisions, homeworks, duties...urgh!not enjoying any minute of it though, except the fact that han and me are getting closer to each other....hehe...thats a really nice getaway from my daily activities...and yeah, both of us got to a deal not to sms so much...but its not much also la, i mean our daily time..about 1hour+...now, only chat about an hour per day...erm....i miss him...btw, he is coming back to school to get his Spm result on the 12th of March, also known to us as ( OUR 11th MONTH TOGETHER~) ^^...of course im happy, but on that day im still sittting for my exam =.='''...that's being a cold towel >.<..hehe...im having my morale lessons right now, teacher let us do what we want, so i decided to post a post...argh...gotta get back to my revisions... bak kata cikgu " BELAJARLAH DARI SEKARANG KALAU HENDAK BERJAYA" ( this phrase is being repeated almost 20times every day in my life ) haha...XD

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ - Lazy =P

omg....so lazy to go back to school....going in an hour's time...haish....cny holiday week is rly bored+relaxing but lotsa lotsa hmwks...nah, cnt be avoided, as they say, students during examination year...hehe....erm....he's doing great there, as far as i can see....however he seems stressed out but fun...hehe...anyway, glad tht he's enjoying there...i miss him though....:P..k la...pen off!gtta serve the guests =.=''''

ViviaN (bored)
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i❤hvayn™ - 9th Month! =D

hehe...its our 9th month being together today..maybe it may not sound long but well, i appreciate it! :P..i miss him...its tiring and lonely in school without him...everything seems so different...anyway, he's been trying his best to make me feel that he's with me...both of us are quite busy with our routines...and he's been asking me to study n study and not waste time on other things..haha..he called me yesterday, i mean at 12midnight to wish me...=D...i love you Sarhan, and i will fulfil the wish you made yesterday...muackz!hehe...okay, so in school, life is real bored and irritating...im transferred to dorm c48..thats yucky news to me in some ways, because it means that i have to climb 4levels of staircases only i can reach my dorm...(x.x)..and what's worse, is that my dorm is beside that bitch's dorm...so, with no doubt, i see her every day....in and out of dorm, toilet etc...shyte...while in academic wise, hurmmm....teacher's been pressing all of us real hard, with the never ending list of homework...haha...by the way, i was appointed as the studyroom's head for the Purnama and Segara's Princesses...haha...but i have no intention of going down there yet, because i need my beauty sleep at night..hehe...i miss him very much...very corner in this school reminds me of him...however that doesnt pull my spirit down to study, of course...i did a revision timetable as told by teacher to have a more disciplined way of studying...erm..and while i was doing that, it occured to me that PMR is only about 35+ weeks to go...how time flies!haha...the 'examination fever' has been long gone within myself...and its hard to relocate it though...trying kinda hard now...aza aza fight fight!!!hehe...while im here like this, he's seems busy too..classes, lecture, etc...i wanna support him like how he's supporting me...cause i love him!oops...gonna pen-off...going off for my next class - KH =.='''

ViviaN <3<3<3 Sarhan!!!
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i❤hvayn™ - Last Day

its the last day of my holiday at home!!!!!omg...going back to my dearest school tomorrow...haha...just being a little overly sarcastic...btw, mr.han's going to kl for 3months for his course this coming monday...going away earlier than i expected..=) my laptop sort of broke down this few days so i couldnt come online to post...well, few days ago, dont really want to remember when, we kinda had a fight...over that female [again]...ok, so both of us had our fault..eventually we stuck back to each other..but its really the last time im going to tolerate with that FEMALE..at least im not calling her a B now..but in my heart, she's always a B to me...urgh...i really hate her..ok, back to hvayn<3 ...he's been unwell these few days...luckily he's better now...wont get me so worried when he goes to kl....thank god some of his batch mates got it too....so he would at least have closer friends =D...hmm...someone once told me that couples with a age difference of 3years would always fight..haha..i think i experienced it thoroughly...the dozens of dozens of fights we had, impossible as it may seems, we always kinda get back to each other in the end....it doesnt mean that i dont like to get back to him but it's just the *urgh* feeling..somehow the situation between us will always improve after fights...because by then we would learn our mistakes....thank god....and i love him very much...i dont know how not to make him feel that im not wanting him to be 100%perfect dream guy..he keeps thinking that he's far from being perfect...but i reallly dont mind, although honestly i would love him to dote on me more but i think i saw that during the night when we fought lately...i really mean something to him although he doesnt really shows...im already contented with him...does anyone knows how what should i do to stop him from feeling inferior??it hurts to see him blaming himself and the sorries he keep making because of what he is....actually he really changed a lot for me...and i appreciate it...=D..thanks for loving me, Sarhan!

ViviaN
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