i❤hvayn™ - Back Home =D

hehe..both of us are back home since....two days ago...but i hardly found anytime to post on our blog, as i was busy studying..haha...weird for me and my family, because i dun usually study at home..haha...hmm..everything's well for the both of us...talked everything, every problem out..solved..^^...now, just want him to concentrate on his revisions for the upcoming trial n then, his spm...good luck byby...i love u..muackz!!support u oways ^_______^..erm...he....initiated a breakup with me on monday night...i was like 'ohmygodthisisntreallyhappenningpleasehelpme'..i was really speechless when he said that...really really speechless...i just didnt expect it to be so fast...he promised not to leave me..he promised he wont be the one to leave me..he promised he would love me forever...but he actually said That...wow..the first thing on my mind was 'he's the same'..but i didnt really want to let him go...because i really loved him...so i called him back and told him that i needed him...after that, things went O.K, but i was a little hesitant whenever he contacts me..and obviously, he felt the change in me..but what he thought he felt was not the truth...my feelings for him still remained the same...i was just lacking the trust in him..time and again he hurted me by saying those words...and this time was the two words i really wanted to be the last at my 'the-things-that-i-hate-most' list..''''Break-Up''''..hmm...but after that when i told him my problem he seemed to understand although to me he doesnt want to accept it...but he convinced me that those were not his heartfelt words...im still trying to trust him...i really want to..i hope this wont sour our relationship though..hmm..last night we talked about 'what if he goes oversea'...i dont really feel the 'what if' is actually 'what if' because he really has the potential and high chances to get scholarships..he scored almost perfect A1's last Sbp trial...yeah, thats my baby :)...10a1's and 1a2..his a2 was just left with merely A MARK to a1..haha..i pity him though...the a2 is sure being a big wet blanket...haha....back to the story..ahem..so, i still stick to my decision to wait...i will not promise him, but i will try my best...that's what i told him...in his eyes, maybe im still that girl who cant live without guys..well, nvm then...but i still told him that the reason that would make me fail is not because of me falling for other guys, but it will be because i feel he's not there anymore..i dont know whether he trusts me, but he sounded like he did...and he said he would contact me everyday...and i asked, then how will it be when im in school?...haha...so we decided on calls occasionally (but depending his finance on that time, we are not born with a silver spoon), emails, and also webcam when im at home..he promised that i will feel he's always with me..i want it to...i really want it..i hope that all these obstacles can strenghten our relationship....hmm...my family members know about our relationship too...they objected of course, without a doubt...but sarhan and i really wants to prove that our choices are not wrong...this will be it...we both have to be very determined, im sure of that...go go hvayn!!!!! =D...i just wont let him go...he's my everything...i love him more than i love myself, and its really true...thanks for being my angel^____________^..i love you sarhan and i always will, muackz!!!!!!!


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i❤hvayn™ - Day One Hundred and Thirty Four

*yawn yawn*..I'm tired...because woke up since 5am for that stupid period =.=..i miss you, hubby...i need you here...sobsob..last night he doubted my love for him...he acually doubted it....nothing to say anymore...haiz...i really love you, Sarhan..

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i❤hvayn™ -His Hundreth Day Gifts by Her

(Her Speech for Him)



( CD's inside ^____^)



(Front n Back View )




(That's the Only I Can Give)




( hvayn:: A Lifetime's Promise)





(Drawing and Drawing :) )




( Glitter Glue-ies )




( Her First Time Meeting Him Ticket )





( Last but not Least, Created With Love)



(Here's how the disc look's like :P [ Videos are below])



( At the back of the DIY envelope)



( Her Painted Envelope)



(Truly Mean It !! =D )



( Awww...Sweety Lovey Pinky! )



(For The Last...)

( His Portrait :P )

( Her Potrait :P )

( Hehe..How Would I Ever Forget The First Time Meeting Him )

( What I've Learnt From You )

( Her Poem to Him )

( Princess Vivy Showing How Much She Loves Her Prince :) )

( Countdown to the BIG day :P )

( Happy 100th Day Anniversary, Hubby )

( Hehe..The Front Cover Which Is Covered With Paper Hearts Exactly Like The Ones I Do For Him Each Day )

( Our Fairytale Never Ends =D)

(Happy 100th Day Anniversary )

(Our Pictureboard :) )

(I Love You, Sarhan)

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i❤hvayn™ - 133th Evening

*burpie*...just finished my dinner..hehe..wondering if he had eaten or not...i think he did, because he simply loves to eat :P..hehe...if im not wrong he's at the mosque now...waiting for the azan to come...i miss him...i really do...he smsed me at 1417hours just now...corresponded in 10 messages and he had to go, again.. sobsob...I MISS YOU, SARHAN!!!!

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ - How We Progressed

(Sarhan and Vivian, Menara Kuala Lumpur)

( Sarhan and Vivian. First Day Together )

it was the night of 7th April 2008...i was on my bed in the dorm...playing with my handphone..haha..and suddenly felt the urge to message this one guy -Sarhan...just to ask him whether he's going to the Sajoha Trip the next day..haha...his reply was not long after i sent him that sms...we then corresponded for a while, maybe in 10-20 messages...haha..i agreed to wake him up the next day because he told me he just cant wake up that early....yeah, just a help for a friend..haha...and he went on packing while i slept...I woke him up as promised the next day..hehe...not THAT hard to wake, actually..I only needed 2 times calling..haha...then I went to do my stuff like normal...In the bus, we sms-ed eventhough we were just a few seats apart..haha...but being with those narrow minded people in Science Johore really made us hard to communicate easily, and freely...hehe...we became great friends just after a while...haha..we were almost seen together at every destination we had to go in Kuala Lumpur...and as usual, tongues started wagging..=.=...those nothing to do people..i cant understand why they just love to gossip about people who are just being FRIENDS..hmm..kinda piss me off sometimes..hehe..back to the story....umph...i really had a great time with him at Kuala Lumpur...it's really sweet and unforgetable..haha...i once remembered that he waited for me at the Menara KL when everyone was already going off, I wanted to go to the toilet..haha..kinda gentleman of him..hehe...(we both took a picture before that :), its on top of this post! ) at Alamanda Shopping Complex we also kinda met abruptly and shopped together...haha..just walking and walking..with my very fast pace..haha..i dont feel it but i eventually slowed down because I didnt want to tire him..hehe..I showed him the Mr Midnight Book which have my name as a winner on it at MPH Bookstore..haha..his eyes bulged out...I wont ever forget that :)...hehe..then its time we went 'HOME' to school...haha...the next day, (Thursday), I met him very very frequently..haha...i dont know why but we just kept meeting by chance...hehe...from that day onwards, he smsed me everyday....and that's how we progressed and became great pals..hehe....and on the 12th of April, he asked me to be his girlfriend..haha..eventually after a while, I agreed..and till now, we are still together, and happier than we both have ever been!

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ - How We Met

It all began on the 29th of February, 2008..it was the day I went for the Red Cresent Society's camping for the second time in Taman Negara Endau Rompin..I first saw him when we were waiting at the railway station..He had a certain attraction which keeps me looking on and on at him..haha...i hoped he didnt notice it...and then, the journey started..train to Bekok->4WD to the campsite->jungle trekking->waterfall->jungle trekking->river->campsite->the next day's activity->The Cultural Night..hehe..that was when I was late for it, because I fell asleep in the tent..hehe...when i went out almost everyone was sitting on the mats already..I couldnt find a place to sit..then two boys invited me to sit in front of them..i gladly accepted the offer...hehe..then I started talking to the boys...they introduced themselves to me...one was Paler, and the other, Sarhan ^____^...we talked and gossiped like old women there..haha...then i took a picture of them together....(The Picture On The Right. From the left, Sarhan and Paler) after that we broke into our groups to continue the activities planned and cooked for the last...hehe...it was the 1st of March at that time...hehe..i was waiting for 12am to sing my own birthday song..haha...At first i hanged out with my groupmates while cooking...then i felt bored and began taking pictures with everyone..hehe...after being bored 'again', i went to Sarhan's team..haha..there i began to talk talkatively again..haha..especially with Sarhan, Paler and Muaz if im not mistaken..then i broke Sarhan's egg..haha..really sorry for that..and he forgave me because it was my birthday...thank god..haha...they sang a birthday song for me too, which i really didnt expected it...then, i took a picture with Sarhan...hehe...( The Picture On The Left)hmmm...that's the end of the story of how we both met..hehe...its a sweet memory...and a more wonderful memory is coming, (of how we both progressed to become great friends )..hehe..to be continued...s'long!

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i❤hvayn™ - Day One Hundred and Thirty Three :D

The first post for our blog..hehe..i created this blog with the intention to record most of the happennings in our love as the days go by..^____^..he's currently back in school since yesterday afternoon...hmph...as a Form 5 student, he's really really busy..hehe...i miss him..i really miss him...and the times we could spend time together, of course..haha..it's okay..i will wait..just for a few months, so bear with it , Vivian.. :P ..yeah..even if he doesnt ask me to wait i will still do..because nothing is more important than him being in my life..he changed me totally..haha..sometimes i feel too weak with him...but always feel loved and doted :).. loving him is the best thing that had happen to me..i dont regret ever choosing him as my bf although he really dont have time for me..haha..sometimes, i would ask myself, " why did you choose him to be ur bf ? "..well, i think love just came at the right moment.. ^_______^...he agrees too...anyway, both of us are contented with each other, so who cares?..haha..im left with another 2 days...then i could see him again..hehe..it's the first time i ever feel excited being back to school =.=...although i dont really want to..haha..im still waiting for his message...maybe it will come later,but only god knows when :P..dont really have any idea what to write...continue later with another post if ideas come pouring in :P..s'long!

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