i❤hvayn™- Holidays End =.=

urgh....holidays coming to an end...then, i would be in form3....argh...erm...everythings perfectly okay between us...hehe...he's obviously trying his best to treat me like a princess...and i feel it, eventhough i dont tell him that..hehe...i love him so much!i guess both of us have a better understanding of each other now after these few weeks...there's visitor in my house right now..dun even know who also..haha..im still waiting for his turn to write in this blog, which he hasnt after i already told him how..haha...by, if u r reading this, im not blaming u lo...hehe...i love u so much!rem tht!i just wan u to write in here, like u promised lo...muackzzz!k la, pen-off...visitor is gonna need some entertainment...continue tonight if possible..vy <3 by..

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™- 8 Months and a Day =D

hehe...ytd was our 8th months...on the 11th by accompanied me and cheered me up very dutifully...and sincerely of course...i really really loveeeeee him to the skies!!!hehe..im in penang now..just after he leaves then i come..no affinity?=o..shooo tired...he's already sleeping when i phoned him just now...tired out i guess....hmm...thats all...i love u sarhan!

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Less than 300km apart =D

haha...here i am, at a hotel cafe in thailand, while he, at his hotel seri malaysia in penang...hehe...both of us cant be apart tooooo much =DDDDD...by, i miss u, i really do...haiz....so, we r ok tdy...kinda smsed throughout the way to both our destinations, however we both fell asleep..hihi...a long long journey =.=... im going to langkawi island tmr...yeah~getting sunburnt is my "fav", haha....wonder wad's byby doing now...the charges for each sms sent from here to malaysia is rm2, and i already sent 5 to him, cnt send more..haiz....and he actually said
"wow, really?" when i told him there are lots of prositutes everywhere here in thailand...GRRRRR!!!!so angry with him....AHH!!!anyway, he apologised and said tht he's joking...erm...wadever la...dun wanna spoil each other moods on our vacation....but i really really miss him like hell =O...byby, when cn i meet u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!btw, he finally mms-ed me a pic of himself...haha...finally, better late than never, haha...going back to my room now...hope both of us will have an enjoyable hols!daa~

pen-off

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™- Boredoom

omg..its so bored!!!!!!!!!!not with him, of course, haha...the moment i started writting on this post i received an sms from him..said tht he had reached home...huh...had a new view of me and him after i did a lot of thinking...ya, maybe i should learn not to hang onto him so much..will do good to the both of us..just LOVEEEE him so much!!

pen-off..=D
PS I love u, Sarhan Saim!

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Now or Never

great.

SPM's over.

now's the time.

for him to prove.

what he had promised.

i'm so nervous.

will he go back on his words again?

or will he keep them?

OMG

i'm so *ugrh*

anyway.

he didnt.

i mean.

since he finished his last paper.

he still havent show any changes Y-E-T.

anyway.

i still LOVE him to the core.

dont know what to say.

done.


ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - He Dont Want Me Anymore

5th November 2008

Exactly like how we started

We ended up on that day

During his prom night

Its hurting me like hell, i really do feel so hurted by him....Sarhan...i need you...Why do you have to go?Why do you have to break your promises?Why cant you just understand me for once?Why dont you care whether I'm sad or not?WHY??

Everything was fine between us until that evening...We met at the front of the common hall...yeah, almost every couple was meeting each other that night, some even took pictures in front of the ustaz...its been a long time since i had a really good time with him...yet, to him, im just copying and wanting what others does -Dating..does he not feel how much i miss him?why cant he understand that??even so, i tried to make him stay...anyway, teachers know about us already...i dont seem to find any problem with that but to him its such a taboo...after taking a picture, which was taken far apart from each other compared to the first day we were together...he ran straight into the hall when the form5 movie started...he just left me alone there...outside the hall...no one would know how it feels like...to him its always nothing, nothing and nothing...then i went to the bench and sat alone..............

as i sat there, i began to think of something which happened before my performance that night...then tears began to fall from my cheeks because it was so unfair that only i got scolded...then he came....he asked me why i cried...and he asked was it because of him..i told him it was not but he didnt seem to believe it...we had a slow talk by then...finally, i knew what he wanted...he should go get a robot...a robot that can be whatever he wants and he can do whatever he please with it....but im not..im just human, baby..you and i both have our own flaws....but you told me you cant accept mine because i just dont CHANGE....did you not see any change it me?not even a little bit when everyone noticed??i tried my best for you, Sarhan, i really did...but i dont see any of your effort trying to keep our love alive...you even reprimanded me that night...do you know how much hurt u have inflicted on me?do you exactly know that i could die listening to all those??

"no, you are the one who dont understand me"

"of course i understand you"

"you are just an over reacting girl"

"dont you know that you are burdening me?"

"i dont see you carrying out your duty as a girlfried"

"you turn my life upside down"

"how many times i told u that i dont like your presents"

"it makes me more tension than happy"

"how come others can relax me while you cant?"

"how come im happier with others?"

"and you are not a muslim"

"you wont understand"

"you wont understand"

"you wont understand"

"i dont think we are suitable to be together"

"love is nothing"

"what do you have now huh?"

"with only a UPSR slip, then you love like this"

"to me, love is supposed to be simple"

"i just want to find my girlfriend when i want"

"other than that is my life"

"i do love you"

"but now i dont anymore"

"just go away"

"i said stop crying"

"SHUT UP!"

"are you happy now?"

"or do you want me to get punched only you are satisfied"

Remember these??it rings in my mind everyday...do you know how much madness it causes me?you are killing me, Sarhan...if you didnt love me from the start, why did you give me hope?why do you want to leave me only now???there are so many unanswered questions that you gave me...when i wanted to ask, you are either busy or tired...dont keep me hanging on like this...if you couldnt bring yourself to love me you shouldnt have promised me tons of things...you shouldnt have told me that our love would conquer all...you shouldnt make me hand out all my trust to you...you shouldnt take my heart away...until now i still cant forget you...

Sarhan, if you dont love me anymore, why do you still want to contact me every day?why do you treat me better now compared to the time you were my boyfriend? you even offered to walk me up to the class...cant you see that my heart is breaking when i said no? cant you feel that im hurted when i dont even look in your eyes? cant you understand that i would just run to you and hug you when you look for me in the class? you abandoned me...yet, you wouldnt let me go...im really confused...i dont know which way to go right now...i love you but you dont love me...i want you but you dont want me...i want to let go but you wont...i dont want you to go but you still did.....do you know its unfair to me?have you ever spared a thought for my feelings??i gave you everything i could...i would do anything as long as you were happy...i changed for you...everything i did was because of you...and yet you actually hate this girl....

Sarhan, please...I love you very much...but if you really dont love me anymore, please help me to forget about you...dont come looking for me...because if you still do, its just a matter of time that i go and kill myself...you know i cant stand these..you know i hated being alone...you know i loved you too much...but yet you still left...do you know how much pain these caused me??have you ever know how i feel??

ViviaN

i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Our 6th Months

His 6th Months Gift by Her

Her 6th Months Gift By Him (There's Another Bag Of Choclate but its All Been Eaten Up xD)

Happy Six Months, baby..

I'm sorry for everything...

Everytime,

Things would crop up..

I dont really know why

But I really love you..

I'm sorry...

Please dont be angry anymore...

ViviaN

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i❤hvayn™ - Day Hundred and Ninety Eight

both of us are home...

i dun really know what to write...

just wanted to...

I MISS HIM,

thats for sure..

busy these days,

as usual...

gonna be more,

when school reopens..

something happened between us

days ago

and it somehow changed

my view towards him

i know i shouldnt do this

but i couldnt stop it

i cant help but

not to trust him anymore

i cant help but to

keep my distance

i cant help but to

put on my self defences

maybe thats how he wants

me to be

how normal

how silent

how simple

how dull

albeit its driving me crazy

in two days time

it will be our 200th day

hmm

hope we wont quarrel

as we always do

on anniversaries

i love you

Sarhan

i really do.....



ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ -Happy Raya!!

hehe..happy raya baby!!im having flu though..sobsob...hmmm...everything's ok between us...last night..sis went to tell him about me leaving him...err...actually i dont intend to do it anymore...so i said NO to him, when he asked..but still, i confessed that i thought of it before..well, its the truth what...hmm...after that was ok...i believe him....today's the first day of his hari raya....he smsed me though...which was really a surprise...haha....cause quite early....emmm..now, im still waiting to go visiting...actually forced to go...dont really like places with lots of people....maybe im weird after all...haha....and also, waiting for baby's message....to be continued..tata~

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Start Of Something New

hehe...just when i gave up hoping he sent me an sms last night...huh, darling, you really know how to make a person go through ups and downs =.=....erm....i think i decided not to do anything harsh...it must be tiring for him to be a top student....and he needs my support...so i cant just abandon him and go...maybe if this doesnt get any better, i will do it after his exam...but for now, just give him the support and love that he needs...i miss him......

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Nights'

2314hours now..still waiting for your sms...i miss you......i miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - I Miss You

baby, although i said those things in my post two days ago, however, i still miss you a lot right now....you really surprised me today when you sent me an sms at 1310hours...as you dont usually do...erm...after that we kinda, well, had some misunderstanding...but mostly because of me...i know it...sorry, but i dont know why i just cant treat you the way like i used to..when you dont contact me, then i miss you a lot...when you contact me, i will give you some bad treatment, although i want to treat you nicely...haha...maybe you really dont know how to put words together to make your sentences feel better..saying that i dont mind you being not romantic, sometimes its a lie..for some moment i need to be a normal girl..haha...you really understand me...you can see through me the moment you set eyes on me that im sad or troubled....but you dont know what i want, or i should say, too busy to care for....if i dont bother you, i wished you would come and console me...if i hang your calls, i wish you would call me again...if i said i miss you, i wish that you would just say 'lets meet'...i wished and i told you before that i loved surprises....but none of that exists...sometimes im just a girl...i would too, naturally, want for all these childish things...the things that Sarhan wont do for girls...haiz...i hope i can untie the knot in my heart as soon as possible...i dont want you to feel that i dont love you anymore, nor do i want my feelings to fade...i really really want you to know that I MISS YOU!!!i wished i could stand right in front of you to cry my heart out just to let you know that i really really really love you, Sarhan...i will change for the better...Vivian Tan will be the best girlfriend in Sarhan's life..because he loves no one else but me....and i do too....

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Hols

back for the hols...both of us, of course..anyway, he's busy...for sure...feeling the urge to write...a lot of things..lots of transparent mirrors between us...what actually happened??i really am sad and disappointed when he talked harshly to me two days ago...however, i dont blame him...as he had stated very clearly of his decision to me...i will give him my full support...he didnt even sent an sms to me for 24hours...at 1am, he sent one though...just to wish me good night....is it so difficult for him to just spare a minute, just a minute....to tell me how is he??i dont really understand that...when i told him about this, guess what was his reaction?? "...kay, dont pressure me k?im motivated for spm already..." he even told me few nights ago that he dont want to think about love anymore...i wish him the best...i dont know why didnt i left him when i heard that....he promised me before that he wouldnt hurt me the way my past boyfriends did...i think, he forgotten about it...are promises to him are really like this?is it so hard for him just to understand how i feel??maybe, just maybe, im not worth for him to even spare a thought for my feelings...to him, if i love him, why cant i wait for him? y cant i just support him for this two months, and y would i leave him when he's busy if i really love him?he told me, that this is not love if i only want him when he's free...actually sarhan, if i dont cry, it doesnt mean that i dont feel pain....if i dont yell, it doesnt mean that u arent hurting my feelings....and actually, i just need the old you....not to say 24hours, but just when you are free....nowadays, u changed...you talk to me like you dont care...i know you care and you love me...but, this is not the way i can take it...maybe my friend is right...im tired...i cant be the ever perfect and patient Jane in your eyes...no matter how hard i try, i dont really have a place in your heart....i will always be here for you though....just turn back and look for me if you need me...like how you are doing now...when you are lonely, you contact me..but when you are not, im just a shit...yeah, you are not going to like this after you read it, i know...but you are really hurting me...i try to be strong but i cant...its already 5months and 15days since we started...you are the first guy, who made me had the confidence to stand up again after i fell a year ago...since i met you, my whole life changed...you are a good guy, remember that...i guess we are not suitable....anyway, im going to cherish you and give you an unforgetable time until spm finishes....then, i will wish you the best in your future undertaking....i wished you really loved me....however, i dont think i would find love anyway...im just like a stick on note...you need it, you use it, you used it, you tear it....if you ever have the chance to read this, and if you still have feelings for me, what i would like to tell u is dont be guilty for causing me to become like this...we decided to be together, and this is our fate...woo jane back, while there's still time....everytime i hear how u treat her, i really am jealous...and whenever you dont care, the thought of why cant you treat me like how u treat her always occurs...although u dont love her like you love me, but at least she had you and she was loved by a guy, who would wait for her sms eventhough he knows that she doesnt even reply long till 2am in his hands....i really want to breakdown sometimes....but whenever i want to initiate a breakup i cant stand just to imagine your dejected face....getting back to the past, its almost impossible now, or even after spm...i did my best to make u feel loved..during the second you first told me about your story with jane, i promised myself not to be like this....but in the end, you were the one who became her....you once told me, no matter how busy you are, you wont treat me the way she did to you...maybe you dont realise, but you are doing these now...the feeling of being left alone, maybe you know better than anyone else...i never regret being with you, although lots of people asked me to leave....i held the hope, hoping that you would love me like you once did....im still holding on it...but maybe, i dont have the energy and courage anymore....we have 93days left....although i really dont want to let you go but i cant be your girlfriend anymore...i cant feel your unconditional love like i used to...the memory of me and you, will be etched here in my heart forever....i promise that...you must find your happiness, sarhan...someone who will truly be weighed tons in your heart....then, you will know what's the meaning of love....as i end this post, my heart will also will be sealed...we dont talk the way we used to talk...and its hurting so deep....i've got my pride too...sorry, but i really cant do it anymore...i love you but im not a toy...i really, really need the old you....

Sarhan's Stick On Note
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i❤hvayn™ - Long Time No See

hmm...its been quite some time since i wrote a post in this blog...the school's internet sever was down; cable got robbed..haha...so, couldnt post one...anyway, things are getting worser, it seems like, between me and him..maybe its because of exam, his trial is this week, but even so, couldnt he at least smile at me when he walk through the toilet's lane??just took ONE glance and walked away..W.O.W...it really left me speechless and tears started to circle around my eyeballs...i dont want to cry, maybe he isnt doing it on purpose, but i cant keep lying to myself like this...i hate this situation, Sarhan, i really hate it....please dont treat me like this...its our 5 months tomorrow...its not an easy task to acheive between us, because of our situation...im really glad we came this far but i wan everything to continue and last for ever...thats what i really want...i wonder how can i make him realise that i really hate being like a stranger to him...lover to stranger, thats a big difference, mind that...i dont want my feeling to go away....but i cannot stand it this way...im not your superwoman, darling...im not the kind of girl, that you can let down, and think that everythings O.K...we dont talk the way we used to talk, nor being in love like we used to...and its hurting me so....im being strong all the way, because im always hoping that im the one who's thinking tooo toooo tooo tooo much....but even my friends can see the change in you, not only me...Baby, I am only human...This girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me...please tell me this is just for the moment....just for a short short while, because my strength is going out, bit by bit....haiz...im going home tomorrow...he's not though...normal for form5...by the way, congratulations hubby!!11A1 for his last trial...hehe...thats who i call my BABY!!!maybe all that we sacrifice ; time and etc..is really worth it...i dont mind if he puts his studies in front of me, because to me SPM only occurs once in a lifetime...however, im sometimes i really feel im insignificant...how??how can i solve this problem?its really serious...for me...but maybe not for him...i know that...he told people that he doesnt want to think of love now..then why would he want to still be in a relationship with me??a big question which always pop in my mind, but no one actually knows how terrible it feels...i love you!!!!!!i really really love you...please come back, sarhan....

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Back To School :(

wawa...gonna get back to school later...in another 2 hours+...:P..first, im excited because i can see him very soon, but im bored because i really hate that school..=.=''....hard to understand me right?haha...hmph..woke up at 12.30 just now..hehe...not fasting today, cause' dad's gonna bring me out later...yeah, who knows if he finds out right?as the saying goes, prevention is better than cure :P..hmm..wonder what he's doing..actually im missing him like crazy but i dont want to sms him...hmmm....acting on a princess temper =.=, although i know im at fault...haha...but i really wanted him to accompany me...i feel lonely, but he's too tired to think for me, maybe...but never mind...forget it lo...after a while we will go right back on the track, i believe..love u, baby!!last night, i told him about the story my friend told me (him and his muslim gf)...hmmm, and at last i told him that if we stay, and my family objects, im still not gonna give him up..yeah, it may sound funny for a 14 year old girl talking like this, but this would be my choice...he too said that if his family objects, then get married abroad..haha...thats better :P...then he asked me, can i be a muslim??yeah, of course, if im not wearing tudungs or long sleeved shirts each and every day...i know this would be like not respecting the religion but i just really cant do it...he says he can...hehe...im really happy...finally, we sorted out a way for our future =D....maybe it sounds ordinary for couples, but its not for me though...i dont really talk about 'futures' with other guys, like what im doing with him..maybe i dont believe there's 'future' with them...hehe....but i want to have a future wid baby..^_______________________^...i love you, i love you, i love you....muackzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ -Fasting Day ^^

*burpie burp* =D..hehe..im bloated now..i guess he does too...i fasted with hubby today :)..he's currently doing his tarawikh prayers...if i get that spelling right, it should be it...hehe...i woke up at 2pm today...byby woke me up...unbelievable right?haha...hmph, but nothing's impossible :p...i really like it when he wakes me..i like it when he takes the first move, not me..haha...but its ok...i kw he cant..so, im gonna try my best...haih, but i miss him...i wish that we could spend more time together...i dunno why but i feel that im going to lose him soon..i know i shouldn't feel anything related to that as we have our promises and we trust each other..however, thats exactly how i feel...cant help it...especially when he's not there for me..i know this situation isnt what he wants either...i know he's busy...spm coming...spm spm...everyday, i would remind myself like this...i've come to terms with it, but i hope i can see more light though..its killing me..the feeling..no one would understand...i know he's not ignoring me...he doesnt even have time for a good rest, so, how can he spend time with me??i want him to make himself priority for now...but i cant help feeling insignificant...my fault...>.<..anyway, i really must be strong..i cant let my own feelings ruin myself, him, or our relationship...everything's important...he needs my support, and that's what I will give him...i want him to feel loved, not burdened....because love is supposed to be like this...making a person happier, making a person easier, and making a person better...but if its burdening him....i rather leave than making him suffer...one may think that these words are really nothing, but if you do, please think back and reflect then..on the other hand, i need him too...i really need him...he cant give me that now..i know...nothing can help it..he has important tasks to carry out his duties, i know...i just wish him the best...god bless him....if i keep repeating these words to him, he will not like it...he says its boring him out...yeah, maybe..but maybe our thinking are really different....as if im receiving the 'FM connection' and he's receiving the 'AV connection'...sometimes i wonder, are we really suitable together??but i dare not dig my head for the answer...still lack of confidence...not in this relationship, of course...but maybe, with myself??i know i cant make him happy...maybe i should leave...i think i really should...but, my selfishness really doesnt want me to let go..and i dont, too...hope things turns for the better after all this..time, please pass faster...this is really killing me...its not hard to wait for him...because even if we really part a day, his place in my heart would never really be replaced....i really need that unconditional love i used to feel...i cant feel it anymore now...it's not a fact of being romantic or not, but the feeling..it just aint the same anymore...when can i have you back, sweetheart???i cant wait for all this to end, but i will wait, of course =D....although its still a long way to go.....2nd of December..please end faster!!Sarhan, I really wished u r by my side this very moment..i know u hate me saying these...but i really need you to know...I love you...

ViviaN
i❤hvayn™

i❤hvayn™ - Back Home =D

hehe..both of us are back home since....two days ago...but i hardly found anytime to post on our blog, as i was busy studying..haha...weird for me and my family, because i dun usually study at home..haha...hmm..everything's well for the both of us...talked everything, every problem out..solved..^^...now, just want him to concentrate on his revisions for the upcoming trial n then, his spm...good luck byby...i love u..muackz!!support u oways ^_______^..erm...he....initiated a breakup with me on monday night...i was like 'ohmygodthisisntreallyhappenningpleasehelpme'..i was really speechless when he said that...really really speechless...i just didnt expect it to be so fast...he promised not to leave me..he promised he wont be the one to leave me..he promised he would love me forever...but he actually said That...wow..the first thing on my mind was 'he's the same'..but i didnt really want to let him go...because i really loved him...so i called him back and told him that i needed him...after that, things went O.K, but i was a little hesitant whenever he contacts me..and obviously, he felt the change in me..but what he thought he felt was not the truth...my feelings for him still remained the same...i was just lacking the trust in him..time and again he hurted me by saying those words...and this time was the two words i really wanted to be the last at my 'the-things-that-i-hate-most' list..''''Break-Up''''..hmm...but after that when i told him my problem he seemed to understand although to me he doesnt want to accept it...but he convinced me that those were not his heartfelt words...im still trying to trust him...i really want to..i hope this wont sour our relationship though..hmm..last night we talked about 'what if he goes oversea'...i dont really feel the 'what if' is actually 'what if' because he really has the potential and high chances to get scholarships..he scored almost perfect A1's last Sbp trial...yeah, thats my baby :)...10a1's and 1a2..his a2 was just left with merely A MARK to a1..haha..i pity him though...the a2 is sure being a big wet blanket...haha....back to the story..ahem..so, i still stick to my decision to wait...i will not promise him, but i will try my best...that's what i told him...in his eyes, maybe im still that girl who cant live without guys..well, nvm then...but i still told him that the reason that would make me fail is not because of me falling for other guys, but it will be because i feel he's not there anymore..i dont know whether he trusts me, but he sounded like he did...and he said he would contact me everyday...and i asked, then how will it be when im in school?...haha...so we decided on calls occasionally (but depending his finance on that time, we are not born with a silver spoon), emails, and also webcam when im at home..he promised that i will feel he's always with me..i want it to...i really want it..i hope that all these obstacles can strenghten our relationship....hmm...my family members know about our relationship too...they objected of course, without a doubt...but sarhan and i really wants to prove that our choices are not wrong...this will be it...we both have to be very determined, im sure of that...go go hvayn!!!!! =D...i just wont let him go...he's my everything...i love him more than i love myself, and its really true...thanks for being my angel^____________^..i love you sarhan and i always will, muackz!!!!!!!


ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ - Day One Hundred and Thirty Four

*yawn yawn*..I'm tired...because woke up since 5am for that stupid period =.=..i miss you, hubby...i need you here...sobsob..last night he doubted my love for him...he acually doubted it....nothing to say anymore...haiz...i really love you, Sarhan..

ViviaN
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i❤hvayn™ -His Hundreth Day Gifts by Her

(Her Speech for Him)



( CD's inside ^____^)



(Front n Back View )




(That's the Only I Can Give)




( hvayn:: A Lifetime's Promise)





(Drawing and Drawing :) )




( Glitter Glue-ies )




( Her First Time Meeting Him Ticket )





( Last but not Least, Created With Love)



(Here's how the disc look's like :P [ Videos are below])



( At the back of the DIY envelope)



( Her Painted Envelope)



(Truly Mean It !! =D )



( Awww...Sweety Lovey Pinky! )



(For The Last...)

( His Portrait :P )

( Her Potrait :P )

( Hehe..How Would I Ever Forget The First Time Meeting Him )

( What I've Learnt From You )

( Her Poem to Him )

( Princess Vivy Showing How Much She Loves Her Prince :) )

( Countdown to the BIG day :P )

( Happy 100th Day Anniversary, Hubby )

( Hehe..The Front Cover Which Is Covered With Paper Hearts Exactly Like The Ones I Do For Him Each Day )

( Our Fairytale Never Ends =D)

(Happy 100th Day Anniversary )

(Our Pictureboard :) )

(I Love You, Sarhan)

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i❤hvayn™ - 133th Evening

*burpie*...just finished my dinner..hehe..wondering if he had eaten or not...i think he did, because he simply loves to eat :P..hehe...if im not wrong he's at the mosque now...waiting for the azan to come...i miss him...i really do...he smsed me at 1417hours just now...corresponded in 10 messages and he had to go, again.. sobsob...I MISS YOU, SARHAN!!!!

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i❤hvayn™ - How We Progressed

(Sarhan and Vivian, Menara Kuala Lumpur)

( Sarhan and Vivian. First Day Together )

it was the night of 7th April 2008...i was on my bed in the dorm...playing with my handphone..haha..and suddenly felt the urge to message this one guy -Sarhan...just to ask him whether he's going to the Sajoha Trip the next day..haha...his reply was not long after i sent him that sms...we then corresponded for a while, maybe in 10-20 messages...haha..i agreed to wake him up the next day because he told me he just cant wake up that early....yeah, just a help for a friend..haha...and he went on packing while i slept...I woke him up as promised the next day..hehe...not THAT hard to wake, actually..I only needed 2 times calling..haha...then I went to do my stuff like normal...In the bus, we sms-ed eventhough we were just a few seats apart..haha...but being with those narrow minded people in Science Johore really made us hard to communicate easily, and freely...hehe...we became great friends just after a while...haha..we were almost seen together at every destination we had to go in Kuala Lumpur...and as usual, tongues started wagging..=.=...those nothing to do people..i cant understand why they just love to gossip about people who are just being FRIENDS..hmm..kinda piss me off sometimes..hehe..back to the story....umph...i really had a great time with him at Kuala Lumpur...it's really sweet and unforgetable..haha...i once remembered that he waited for me at the Menara KL when everyone was already going off, I wanted to go to the toilet..haha..kinda gentleman of him..hehe...(we both took a picture before that :), its on top of this post! ) at Alamanda Shopping Complex we also kinda met abruptly and shopped together...haha..just walking and walking..with my very fast pace..haha..i dont feel it but i eventually slowed down because I didnt want to tire him..hehe..I showed him the Mr Midnight Book which have my name as a winner on it at MPH Bookstore..haha..his eyes bulged out...I wont ever forget that :)...hehe..then its time we went 'HOME' to school...haha...the next day, (Thursday), I met him very very frequently..haha...i dont know why but we just kept meeting by chance...hehe...from that day onwards, he smsed me everyday....and that's how we progressed and became great pals..hehe....and on the 12th of April, he asked me to be his girlfriend..haha..eventually after a while, I agreed..and till now, we are still together, and happier than we both have ever been!

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i❤hvayn™ - How We Met

It all began on the 29th of February, 2008..it was the day I went for the Red Cresent Society's camping for the second time in Taman Negara Endau Rompin..I first saw him when we were waiting at the railway station..He had a certain attraction which keeps me looking on and on at him..haha...i hoped he didnt notice it...and then, the journey started..train to Bekok->4WD to the campsite->jungle trekking->waterfall->jungle trekking->river->campsite->the next day's activity->The Cultural Night..hehe..that was when I was late for it, because I fell asleep in the tent..hehe...when i went out almost everyone was sitting on the mats already..I couldnt find a place to sit..then two boys invited me to sit in front of them..i gladly accepted the offer...hehe..then I started talking to the boys...they introduced themselves to me...one was Paler, and the other, Sarhan ^____^...we talked and gossiped like old women there..haha...then i took a picture of them together....(The Picture On The Right. From the left, Sarhan and Paler) after that we broke into our groups to continue the activities planned and cooked for the last...hehe...it was the 1st of March at that time...hehe..i was waiting for 12am to sing my own birthday song..haha...At first i hanged out with my groupmates while cooking...then i felt bored and began taking pictures with everyone..hehe...after being bored 'again', i went to Sarhan's team..haha..there i began to talk talkatively again..haha..especially with Sarhan, Paler and Muaz if im not mistaken..then i broke Sarhan's egg..haha..really sorry for that..and he forgave me because it was my birthday...thank god..haha...they sang a birthday song for me too, which i really didnt expected it...then, i took a picture with Sarhan...hehe...( The Picture On The Left)hmmm...that's the end of the story of how we both met..hehe...its a sweet memory...and a more wonderful memory is coming, (of how we both progressed to become great friends )..hehe..to be continued...s'long!

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i❤hvayn™ - Day One Hundred and Thirty Three :D

The first post for our blog..hehe..i created this blog with the intention to record most of the happennings in our love as the days go by..^____^..he's currently back in school since yesterday afternoon...hmph...as a Form 5 student, he's really really busy..hehe...i miss him..i really miss him...and the times we could spend time together, of course..haha..it's okay..i will wait..just for a few months, so bear with it , Vivian.. :P ..yeah..even if he doesnt ask me to wait i will still do..because nothing is more important than him being in my life..he changed me totally..haha..sometimes i feel too weak with him...but always feel loved and doted :).. loving him is the best thing that had happen to me..i dont regret ever choosing him as my bf although he really dont have time for me..haha..sometimes, i would ask myself, " why did you choose him to be ur bf ? "..well, i think love just came at the right moment.. ^_______^...he agrees too...anyway, both of us are contented with each other, so who cares?..haha..im left with another 2 days...then i could see him again..hehe..it's the first time i ever feel excited being back to school =.=...although i dont really want to..haha..im still waiting for his message...maybe it will come later,but only god knows when :P..dont really have any idea what to write...continue later with another post if ideas come pouring in :P..s'long!

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